A few months ago Sizzle and I were g-chatting, when somewhere between quoting The Goonies and swooning over Seth Rogen the idea to spend New Year’s Eve on the Oregon Coast was born. We were both instantly psyched about the idea, as were two other great and hilarious friends, and thus deposits and plans were made.
December 31st we checked into the Seasprite (which I definitely recommend) and quickly realized we were staying literally yards away from one of the prettiest stretches of beach on the Oregon Coast. I’ve always been quite smitten with Cannon Beach, babycarrot sister having lived there for two years and me having spent ample time there with her and Will and other awesome friends and family (and it also being Iggy’s favorite place on the entire planet), and will forever maintain that it’s impossible for me to visit Cannon Beach and not have a profoundly shiny, happy time.
Cannon Beach plays host to a slew of wild rabbits all year round, but the ones who live at the Seasprite, I quickly discovered, run toward you when you approach them exclaiming “BUNNIES. Hey, you guys! Look at the BUNNIES!” Here’s Lola (which I just named her even though I’m not sure she’s really a “her” at all):
The view from our beach house, which also doubled as the reason I was pouting at check-out on Saturday:
On Thursday night Sizzle made us a tasty dinner of stuffed chicken and couscous, because she is amazing:
When we first talked about renting a place on the coast for New Year’s Eve I said I thought it would be AMAZING! to jump into the Pacific Ocean at midnight. (Filed under: Things you should never say to Long Story Longer if you don’t 100% mean it.) I did (mostly) mean it, though at five minutes to midnight with rain pelting down and wind whipping so hard it was comical, the ocean didn’t so much look inviting as, you know, INSANE.
We did it, and I’m so glad because it was incredible (albeit incredibly frigid, HOLY CRAP), symbolic, and laden with a lot of laughter and screams that went something like “OH MY FREEZING.” “SHIIIIT.” “I CAN’T FEEL MY FEET!” “WOOO-HOOOO!”
Some of my favorite quotes from NYE day, and night:
“I love the wind. It’s my favorite weather.”
“That bunny is scaring me right now.”
“I can’t see! I have glaucoma! Oh wait, it’s just the windshield wiper.”
“He’s a bouquet-maker.”
“A BOOMBOX. How badly do I want put that on my shoulder and walk down the beach right now?”
“Peppermint Joe-Joe’s, I love you.”
“It’s been two dates; we don’t know how we feel about this guy. We’re neutral about this guy.” “We’re Switzerland.” “YES EXACTLY.”
“I got in trouble for dancing.” “JUST LIKE FOOTLOOSE.”
“I can’t feel my feet.” “I know! It’s AWESOME.”
“I want to travel internationally, eat ice-cream, and surf.”
Some of my favorite shots from our coastal getaway:

In summary:
It was an incredibly moving/hilarious/peaceful weekend with three incredibly wonderful women I am so thankful to know.
Also:
This year is going to be incredible for all the right reasons. I just know it.
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