And There I Was, Thinking We Might Actually Cry

Yesterday my grandpa was diagnosed with an extremely rare, and extremely advanced, form of stomach cancer. The epitome of the strongest, healthiest, and outdoorsiest 75 year old man on this planet, I expected to find him in somewhat diminished spirits when my sister and I headed out to Colbert for a little meeting regarding his diagnosis and potential treatment options. I think because I was initially devastated, I expected him to be. At one point I even imagined him reveling in ultimate despair, sobbing to himself on the floor. Ridiculous me. My initial and highly presumed assessment of his mental and emotional faculties became disproved almost instantly.

I presumed a somber mood would overcome the visit, and found my assumption grossly, and thankfully, incorrect.

At one point during the visit my sister and I are having a serious cancer conversation with a very optimistic grandpa Ladish when we notice him switch conversation topics suddenly and unconsciously, and rather than discussing the complexities of stomach cancer, we now find ourselves watching my grandma’s early 90’s Denise Austen exercise video, listening to my grandpa as he explains how great this video is and how grandma can do all the exercises really well. And he’s just plain excited about it, and my grandma is being adorable and kinda bopping to the video beat and moving her arms a bit, like she wants to work out but she just can’t right now because she’s chatting with her grand-daughters, and besides she’s not dressed properly. And all the while Theresa and I are doing our best not to collapse from not breathing because we are laughing so hard.

That’s why I adore my family. Because when someone you love gets cancer you think the next time you see them you might cry, or even be silent for awhile, so as to truly absorb the gravity of the situation, because isn’t that what families do when brusque reality comes knocking, bringing the unpleasant reminder of life’s inconstancy? Not my family. Don’t get me wrong. We cry, we hug, we sit silently (Sometimes. Ok, rarely). But most of the time we laugh. We laugh because life is serious enough without everyone walking around focusing on its solemnity, and because sometimes there isn’t anything else to be done. We laugh because most of us are pretty darn funny, thank you very much. But mostly we laugh because no matter the austerity of a particular situation, we know we have far more for which to be thankful than we do for which to be embittered.

So, cancer smancer.

If my grandpa decides to fight this then I remain confident that it will be the cancer that is high-tailing it out of his body, and not my grandpa high-tailing it out of this world. But no matter the outcome of the pending tests, decisions and surgeries, my family will remain intact. And my grandpa? He will remain amazing, and hilarious.

Weekend Update, Leprechaun Edition

I haven’t run a 5k since 2005, when my sister and I signed up to “trot” a Race for the Cure in Portland and then on race day, about twenty minutes before we were set to briskly walk with the rest of the meanders, she asked if we could run. We have different memories of this day, but I remember knowing we would run even though we had said we were going to walk. I also remember that while she → Read more...

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This post inspired by my friend and Patron Saint of Divorce Redemption.

We’ve all heard about the five (or seven) stages of grief, the designated personal places you must traipse within and for yourself to be able to stand tall on the other side of whatever loss you are suffering. Stages you need to fight your way through surviving, and really processing, to be able to find yourself again.

In my head I liken the five stages of divorce to a wily → Read more...

Do A Big Sister A Favor?

Today is babycarrot sister’s 26th! Day of Cake. Being that my sister happens to be (awesome, yes! and) one of my favorite people on the planet, I think instead of being here, you should go here, and read all about what made her day great. (Seeing as how we’re all very visual learners around these parts, I will tell you that there are most definitely pictures. Of cake, even!)

You could even wish her a happy! birthday. You know, if you → Read more...

My Heart Is A Nautical-Themed Pashmina Afghan

We interrupt copious amounts of Asia recapping this broadcast for a maritime digression of sorts.

You see, I’ve been a lover of the ocean, and of all things aquatic and nautical-inspired, ever since I can remember.

My love for sea-faring-everything might very well have been fostered during the myriad spring breaks spent exploring quaint coastal communities in and around Port Ludlow, Washington. Some of my fondest childhood memories spring forth from days spent poking my curious face into every trinket shop in → Read more...